| Oh man, what a day. My boss was asked to resign today by our board of directors. It came as quite a shock. I happened to speak to his boss about it and apparently my boss managed to piss off all the wrong people over a long period of time. The really sad part is that he pissed his boss off too. So not only his job with my company is over, his job with the other company he works for is probably over too. His passion is for education reform, but since he's managed to piss off high ranking officials at the U.S. Department of Education, I don't think there's anyone in Texas who will want to hire him. He doesn't really deserve what's happening to him right now. But life can be that unjust.
The other day I wondered, yet again, if what we generally refer to as God does, in fact, exist. And if it does, what have I done to piss it off. But then something happens that causes me to question my disbelief. Like when the transmission in my car finally gave out and it happened to occur during a month when I received an extra paycheck so that I just happened to have exactly the amount needed to get it fixed. I was all at once stunned, amazed, and pissed off because that money was meant for other, very important things. So does or doesn't God exist? Well, I guess my answer depends upon what day you ask me.
So now here's another scenario to make me question the existence of God. Just when I was supposed to finally get that long awaited raise that was going to make me feel human again, my boss gets fired. And he tells me that the budget that's been approved by the entity that wanted him out of there doesn't include a raise for me. What the hell!? And I know that whoever comes in to take his place is going to make deep cuts in our spending, starting with staff. I'll still have a job for a while...I think...but the atmosphere there is going to completely change. I've enjoyed so much freedom in this job that I've grown to love it, in spite of the low salary. But now...
So it looks like I have to look for another job. Crap! I dislike writing my resume, and I especially dislike interviewing. And I know that the only reason I'm saying that right now is because I don't know how to present my current skills and experience or who to shop myself to. Right now I'd give anything to have a mindless corporate job with good benefits, a 401K plan, and a daily routine I can count on. Just like the good old days.
Okay, so after all my whining, it's time to count my blessings. At least on the relationship front things are good. Victor and I have so much fun sharing things we like to do. Take gardening, for instance. Separately, I don't think we could keep an air plant alive. But together, we have quite a garden growing. Our herbs grow taller and fuller every day and the flower bed in the front of the house seems very happy. Isn't that what relationships are for? To make eachother better? Better gardeners, better people, better lovers, better cooks, better at relationships, just better. Yea. It's pretty cool. |
